Bruh, why did I have to be cripplingly lonely today of all days?

2022.01.17 13:13 throwaway0183701 Bruh, why did I have to be cripplingly lonely today of all days?

It’s the day before school starts back, and I just wanna curl up and fucking die because I’m so alone. I know no one will ever love me or care about me, I know they literally cannot because I am actually unlovable trash, and it fucking hurts. I couldn’t sleep last night because I couldn’t delude myself convincingly enough that I wasn’t in bed alone and that one single solitary person truly gave a damn about me, which is the only way I can ever get to sleep. The loneliness hurts the worst when I’m quiet, not distracting myself with anything. Trying to sleep is actual torture, I avoid it like the plague and only pass out when I’m exhausted enough that the delusion seems real enough not to question.
Why the fuck today? I’ve had like a month of feeling not great but not terrible. It’s kinda just been like a bruise on my soul, hurts really bad if you poke it but as long as you leave it alone, it’s fine. I’ve been able to forget about it and just play video games and be content enough to not actively wonder why the fuck I should even be here. But now, 1 goddamn day before I have to be around people and interact with them and try to make sure I get a good seat and worry about whether or not I’m offending anyone and make damn sure I don’t let anyone see how sad I am, that’s when fate decides it’s time for me to feel suicidally lonely again.
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2022.01.17 13:13 heyimsugarylove mornin :)

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2022.01.17 13:13 lora312213 Guys help me

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2022.01.17 13:13 hackcartoonist Basketball Comic Book

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2022.01.17 13:13 Daffodil8888 Any ideas? Green jasper conglomerate? (not paint, steel doesn't scratch it) UK beach pebble. Thanks!

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2022.01.17 13:13 mad_son Update to my last post- finished medieval sword and sweet peas! 9rl- very proud of this one

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2022.01.17 13:13 SkunkaMunka64 My CRT takes 11 seconds for the screen to come on after powering it. How can I shorten the time?

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2022.01.17 13:13 InductedClown20 I feel pretty good today, but the fact that I am makes me nervous.

I suffer from mental illnesses, and I’ve been working really hard on being a better me. Thinking before I speak, taking others feelings more into consideration, trying to take better care of myself, and overall just trying to take things day by day. There’s one problem.
I have a pretty big issue with putting myself down and subconsciously being negative toward myself. I feel really high highs, but I also counteract myself with extreme lows.
To help give myself a fighting chance I’ve recently cut back drastically on drinking, and I haven’t smoked weed in two weeks. I try to take pride in the small victories so this milestone has helped me a bit, yet sometimes I still find ways to bottom out, and that has me worried.
I’m really trying to change, and today I feel pretty good. No more writers block, slight boost of confidence, and a positive outlook on my future goals.
I just don’t want this feeling to be short-lived. These daily mental battles can be draining and demons always manage to find their way through and that’s what I fear most.
Thank you for taking the time to listen. To those out there that experience these hardships, I’m pulling for you.
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2022.01.17 13:13 tta2013 Who betrayed Anne Frank and her family? [27:35]

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2022.01.17 13:13 Mumiyo The reason behind Iroha's runny nose

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2022.01.17 13:13 AlexGRNorth people not taking you seriously when not skinny enough

I struggle since years with my EDs. I relapsed not long ago. But I'll always remember when I was in high school. Couldn't keep anything. A friend who was also struggling and went to in-patient a lot once convinced me to go and tell the nurse of our school like she had done the first time. I agreed. I was nervous and nervously smiling and giggling (i tend to do that when in these kind of situations). The nurse asked me questions and weighed me. I was underweight, but barely, so it was it. I never got help.
Then at 16, after being recovered for a little while, I relapsed. I had came out as trans to my mother and was sent to see a sexologue/psy who really worsened my mental health. My mother heard me purge and confronted me. It did make me stop purging. I told the sexologue/psy about my relapse and... She shrugged it off.
Over the years, I got so many "you're skinny, but I know someone skinnier than you!" That I convinced myself I invented it. That I didn't really struggle with EDs. It was reinforced by never getting hospitalised or getting help.
Then I did what I had to do to transition in 2019-2020. I was seing a nurse and she was so sweet and kind and when I told her about it, she called me brave and congratulated me for overcoming it. It was the first time I felt heard. Then I started seing a social worker who also took seriously my mental health issues.
Now I don't see anyone and have relapsed (gained weight during the pandemic and was starting to feel really bad about it and then I forgot to eat a lot during a week because of stress nd work and lost much weight and... I felt great so yeah..)
Anyway. Just wanted to vent about all these people who did nothing and didn't take EDs seriously because I wasn't "skinny enough".
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2022.01.17 13:13 Dense_Bus_47 I was wondering if this game was worth it on ps5 because I’ve heard a lot of good and bad things about this game.

I think I’d really enjoy this game, but I just want to make sure that the bad things don’t outweigh the good things.
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2022.01.17 13:13 FollowingSouth2240 A quick dive in pure nostalgia

It was on a warm, cloudless summer day when my 8 year-old me came back home from school and turned on his GameBoy Color to play Pokémon Gold/Silver. The last gym leader Clair has already been defeated and since then, I spent the time with taking a walk through Johto to level my Pokémons and discovering maybe some new things without knowing how to reach the Pokémon League. I remember when I trained my Seaking, it wanted to learn Waterfall at lvl 37 which I have not found as a VM before. And right after then, the waterfall to the right of New Bark Town came to my mind that I’ve never been able to climb. „Maybe it works now with that attack?“ was the question that went through my curious and unknowing head. With my Feraligator in my back, I surfed through the water east from New Bark Town, entered the cave and faced the Tohjo Falls. I pressed the A button and voilà, it worked! After leaving the small cave, I faced some trainers and made my way through Route 26 and 27. At some point, I opened my map and literally could not believe my own eyes. „Kanto??!!“ YES! GameFreak implemented the whole Kanto region into Gold/Silver and a whole „new“ world opened up for me. It was one of the most beautiful moments in my childhood. What may sound sad at first, is definitely not sad. My childhood was great indeed, packed with many awesome memories. But that was for sure one of the more remarkable ones. I would never have expected that the whole Kanto region was hidden in this game. It kinda felt like a completely new game got added into this edition I already loved so much.
How did you perceive the disclosure of the Kanto region? Were you surprised like me or did you expect that (through spoilers e.g.)?
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2022.01.17 13:13 TheTropicalWoodsman British George V pennies with H & KN mint marks

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2022.01.17 13:13 TransferEng2020 Having Marc on our bench wouldn't be a bad idea

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2022.01.17 13:13 life_as_matsutake the fact this is me

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2022.01.17 13:13 Mattches77 If gifs take too long to load, they will never load

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2022.01.17 13:13 bobthemuffinman Windows insider unenroll still says Windows 10?

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